Tuesday, August 24, 2010

the weeks are flying.

Classes galore. I am back in school for a final push to finish the pre-requisites. Working while trying to do these classes is like running marathon, I start out strong, I pace myself in the middle, and I sprint towards the end. My days are filled between lectures, labs, work, studying, and some sort of social life. I will be so happy when I am done.

With the start of school, also came the return of the Care Center. I'm really happy to be back. I missed all of the patients and staff. It was sad to come back and see that some of them had died while I was away, and that I had missed seeing them go, never getting a chance to say my goodbye. I'm sure they were in good hands though.

Planing for the next 2-3 years is daunting. Planing for the next week can be daunting. Figuring out when I will need to actually get that dreaded loan, when I will need to have a real job, etc. Miles and I have talked and talked a lot in the last few weeks. Working the little nuances of finances and living arrangements and future plans out. Talking is the easy part. Now we are coming to the point where we actually need to be doing what we have talked so much about. I am so excited, and nervous, and scared, and anxiuos, and happpy all rolled into this one big emotional ball rolling down this hill towards the next few months and years.

Mom and Haley got back from their Europe trip. I am so glad they had such a great time. They needed this adventure to connect. Haley is a Junior, and thinking about colleges, and that kind of thing, and this was a nice time for them to do something together and on their own. They went all over the place, they even went to Buckingham Palace and saw Prince Charles and Camilla, tons of castles and pubs. They basically had fun drinking and frolicking their awkward little way's through Europe together with the drinking age only being 16. :)

Jonah last weekend, Jonah this weekend + boating. Sounds pretty alright to me.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

141 days

For the past few days I have wanted it to be Christmas season. December. Maybe its the fact that it feels like winter in August, maybe I like when everyone is in higher spirits, which in turn puts me in higher spirits, maybe I just like all the lights against the dark sky that come with that time of year. Either way, I'm ready for Christmas, just 141 more days to go.

Speaking of Christmas and the days around it... I never made a new years resolution last year, but I have been consciously trying to work on speaking my mind in a more timely manner. I have a habit of keeping things in until they are bothering me so much it is unbearable, at which time I finally get around to talking them out. Lately I have been trying to speak what I am feeling\thinking when I am feeling\thinking it. It has worked in my favor, I feel better, more calm at the end of the day, less anxious about little things.

Ampersand is being extra cuddly while we have the place to ourselves tonight until Miles gets home. More and more talk of moving, getting a pup, even if it's just talk, it's so exciting and motivating. I love us.

((If you are done, then they are done.))
((Situational frustration. Stationary manipulation.))
((It feels good when we connect the way we do. We always connect. I always feel good.))