Giving thanks.

It seems a little crazy that it is already Thanksgiving, and then less than a month away is Christmas.

There has been so much that has changed in the last year, and still so much that remains painstakingly the same.

I am thankful for the following, including, but not limited to:

-my family and their support
-my friends, new and old
-miles, for all of the memories we have created and continue to make
-my health, even with some small bumps in the road...
-music and the amazing ability it has to free yourself from anything
-that I am able to pay all of my bills, and still have money for both myself and some extras along the way
-my home and security



It's weird to think that some people only take one day out of the year to reflect on the things they are grateful for. I would like to think that I am thankful year round, and that I share my gratitude with those around me, even on my worst of days. I am sure this is not completely true, but rather something to strive for.

We are going up to my aunt's in Auburn for a few days. Thanksgiving with the whole family is always fun, and filling. Being up there, with all the openness and country-ness makes you feel like you are on a little mini-vacation. Since I never got the vacation I so desperately wanted and needed, I will take all I can get to get away for little bit.

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Keep calm and carry on.

it's probably in the lost and found.

I have been reconnecting with some friends as of recently. They weren't lost, just misplaced. It feels right.

School everyday, work everyday. Everyday. It's a lot. Thankfully I have those select few that can relate, understand, and therefore deal with my need to sometimes vent. To them, I say thank you.

On a better note, I think I have figured out my plan for school. Said plan includes two more years, which is fine, but the best news is that I am hoping to be able to do it debt free. I have not taken out any loans for school as of yet, and I do not plan on it. Who wants to graduate and enter the career world with 100k in loans to pay back? Not I.

Families are so complicated. It's funny how they judge, but then when things happen to them, they are qucik to sweep it under the rug. Or conveniently 'forget.' I am at a good place. I love my family, I have never been closer with them, and confided in them as much as I do now. It makes me sad when I see people unhappy with their family, not fulfilling their duties as Mom or Dad, or choosing to be absent. I hope I can do what my Mom did for me when I have kids. This world is too nuts to not have your mommy.

In one of my classes we have spent the better part of the last two weeks debating, arguing, and sometimes even agreeing on values needed for an ideal society. We were only allowed to pick 5 top values out of a list of 15 or so. Sounds easy, but it wasn't. We could not vote, we could not use majority rule, one value could not also 'count' for another, no 2-fers. So we were not able to say that, if we have freedom, then we also have equality, or if we have self-respect we also have happiness. We had to come to a consensus, much like a jury would do. EVERYONE had to agree until we could move on. We now have 4\5. Happiness, Equality, Freedom, and Wisdom...the final debate has been between Family Security and World at Peace. No one can agree, there's always that one person that will not budge on the issue. I am loving it and hating it all at the same time.

I'm a little all over the place. Yoga has been helping with this, thank god for Direct TV...namaste.