it's probably in the lost and found.

I have been reconnecting with some friends as of recently. They weren't lost, just misplaced. It feels right.

School everyday, work everyday. Everyday. It's a lot. Thankfully I have those select few that can relate, understand, and therefore deal with my need to sometimes vent. To them, I say thank you.

On a better note, I think I have figured out my plan for school. Said plan includes two more years, which is fine, but the best news is that I am hoping to be able to do it debt free. I have not taken out any loans for school as of yet, and I do not plan on it. Who wants to graduate and enter the career world with 100k in loans to pay back? Not I.

Families are so complicated. It's funny how they judge, but then when things happen to them, they are qucik to sweep it under the rug. Or conveniently 'forget.' I am at a good place. I love my family, I have never been closer with them, and confided in them as much as I do now. It makes me sad when I see people unhappy with their family, not fulfilling their duties as Mom or Dad, or choosing to be absent. I hope I can do what my Mom did for me when I have kids. This world is too nuts to not have your mommy.

In one of my classes we have spent the better part of the last two weeks debating, arguing, and sometimes even agreeing on values needed for an ideal society. We were only allowed to pick 5 top values out of a list of 15 or so. Sounds easy, but it wasn't. We could not vote, we could not use majority rule, one value could not also 'count' for another, no 2-fers. So we were not able to say that, if we have freedom, then we also have equality, or if we have self-respect we also have happiness. We had to come to a consensus, much like a jury would do. EVERYONE had to agree until we could move on. We now have 4\5. Happiness, Equality, Freedom, and Wisdom...the final debate has been between Family Security and World at Peace. No one can agree, there's always that one person that will not budge on the issue. I am loving it and hating it all at the same time.

I'm a little all over the place. Yoga has been helping with this, thank god for Direct TV...namaste.